where i am going

do you love this time of year?  i do!
i love the idea of a fresh start, i like monday’s, i like a new month and i love a new year.

this year, this week in between christmas and new years i havent had that huge burst i usually have.
i know what i want to do, i know where i want to go, but i havent sat down and created the clean slate i have in years past.  that makes me happy.  what?  why does that make me happy?

because i have failed in years past.  yes, this year i have the same goals i have had the past 3-5 years.  yes, they change a little and i have made progress in some aspects, but really, i am generally at the same place i was last year, the year before and the year before that. 

i have failed.

the big three that i always want to change are exactly.the.same.
that is frustrating.

what is more frustrating, is i can tell you exactly why. 
fear

now i do not know if it is i am afraid of failing, afraid of change or afraid of disappointment, probably a good combination of all three.  it is just easier to stay exactly where i am, that is just so stinkin easy. 

so while i may be screaming make the change to everyone around me, it is time i take my own advice and do the things that are in me, that will upset others but that i know in my heart will be a huge improvement for me.  the things that will get me to my big dream/goal, the things that will bring me that peace i am so looking for.

peace in my heart
peace in my head
peace in my home
peace in how i live my life

you often hear people say rest in peace when dealing with death. 
i am ready to live in peace, not just in 2018 but beyond. 

living in that peace will lead me to my big goal and i am pumped for what that holds.

lets do this,
are you with me?

i am committed to being open and honest on this journey here.  that will keep me accountable as to living my life as i want, in peace.

are you ready for a 0ne/80?

what do you think when you hear one/80?  turn it all around? flipping the other way? 
although i have stayed pretty consistent over the holidays with my eating, i feel terrible, sluggish and cannot seem to get my stomach under control!  dairy is killing me, too many bad carbs has me bloated and full feeling.  The one/80 is perfect timing to help me reset myself and flip it all around.

the reason i am so pumped about this is not because of the new year, i dont every need a new year to eat right, i am always striving for that.  it also is not a diet or a quick fix.  the one/80 will lead you to a healthy lifestyle and help you create long standing healthy habits.  clean, portion control and is not a quick fix, but darn, is it going to make me feel so much better. 

the whole program is being broken down into 3 phases, to ensure you are engaged all the way.  this helps me so much as i can attack it in three, which i am a big fan of, chunks of time, totally doable!

umm what is even better?

the free shipping, pineapple coconut spark and $25k!  oh yeah, you read that right.  there is a chance to win $25k for a total transformation, like real…legit!

i am in it for the pineapple coconut spark.  i not ever a coconut fan, but that all changed after i tried this!

what i also love…helping other people reach their goals!  are you looking to make a change?  i would love to have you join me on this journey!  accountability is the key, checking in each day will help you stay motivated, more so me checking in on you each day defiantly will keep you accountable.

lets do this! 

holiday bucket list

my people and i are pushing hard here at the end of the year.  today starts my first day of pto (no mom pto this time!)  and the kids last day of school.  we have a full list of to do’s to finish out the year along with the several basketball games and practices.  i am going to pack the jolliest of holiday fun into these next 2 weeks or go down trying! 


so the list itself i swiped right from etst.  mine is a simpler form of that amazingness she has over there, we wont be jetting of to CHI town for the weekend, but hey, we are going to go to North Ridgville to see the lights, so really, who is the winner here?

the end goal…  family fun.  Here is the catch.  I have lots of years to cover on the fun factor.  I have my 6 year old littlest crazy person who still is fun with the wonder of Christmas, a 9 year old that needs reminding of the power of believe, a teenage boy with visions of you tuber dancing in his head, along  with a freshmen girl who is a good sport and comes along for all my bucket list adventures, or she may just be coming along for that special holiday meal from mto, it is her holiday bucket list favorite!   
Not familiar with mto? oh you just wait, that will be whole separate post! 

the point being, these next couple of weeks I plan on soaking up as much of my people that I possibly can.  spending every single second with them, if that is possible,  making these holiday’s the merriest, laughing until our faces hurt and snuggled in with them at the end of the day passed out from all the holiday cheer!  

we have checked 2 items off the list thus far:
decorate the christmas tree – check



watch A Christmas Story Live! – check, kind of.  the recording cut off a the end due to the football game going over. ugh… but still a check. 

there is a lot of holiday cheer on deck for this week, cookie making, christmas dance party, oh the fun! 

say tuned for all the fun and how i will keep them all engaged, or you may just see me going down  hard trying, either way, it will be a win. 

do you have a holiday bucket list?  if so what is on it?  

its the most wonderful time of the year

it is the most wonderful time of the year, for some that is, basketball season, more specifically, high school and kids basketball season.  in my house, it is basketball season all year around, but this time a year is when all the work all year around hopefully pays off.

let me disclaim here, my kids choose to play basketball, they have fun doing it, they want to. some are more in love with the sport than their siblings, but they still all choose basketball as their physical activity.  I am a big fan of the team comrade it gives them, learning from different coaches, playing with different groups, making new friends not just those they go to school with.  basketball has provided so many benefits for them , that is my disclaimer.

basketball try out season has not always been the best time of year for me, hence the reason why I say it is the most wonderful time of the year, for some.  I have been on both sides of the basketball try outs.  I have one kid that excels, loves it, always gets picked for the team and I have another kid that kind of cares, could take it or leave it but wants to make the team if asked.  I have been told by college coaches how amazing my kid is and I have been told by college coaches my kid has zero potential, so literally I have been on every side of the try out gauntlet. 

while this year so far my girls have made the team, I have sat waiting, hitting refresh on the website that publishes the roster to see the results. I know that heartache that comes with hearing your kid just isn’t there yet or so many that tried out, scanning the list over and over hoping you missed a name.  I have cried countless tears, I just wanted that team setting, be a part of the team opportunity for my kid but was told they were not good enough.  I am a mom, I want what is best for them  I know the sadness of my kid being cut and younger kids making the team, I know the sadness of my kid being the younger kid that has made the older team, there is sadness that comes with that too.  my kid has been told why they shouldn’t be on a team by parents who are upset their kid didn’t make it and I have had my kid congratulated for it. so I get it, I understand it.


while I am super proud of my girl who works so hard at the sport she loves, I prepare her for the adversity that comes along with it.  at the same time I prep myself, that maybe this year is not the year a coach is going to see the potential in my son. I mean, clearly, I know he is going to be a 6’8″, left handed stud, but not everyone can see that potential. 🙂

but what it comes down to, really, is my kids have 2 legs that allow them to run up and down the court, strong lungs that keep them breathing through the drills, arms to shoot and hands to catch (maybe to catch) and the ability to take criticism and accept feedback. when they make the team and when they don’t, I still have the gift of being their mom and picking them up if they are down and celebrating with them. 

basketball may make up 12 months of the year in my house, and people think I am nuts for what we put into it, but it is so much more than basketball, just as the hash tag says.  basketball has given us some of the best memories as a family, the most amounts of joy and sadness, the most amount of together time, the most amounts of 1:1 time, the most fights in the driveway, the most fights in the bleachers but way more fun and laughter that out weighs the bad.

I’m looking forward to another successful, good and bad season ahead of us.

Take good care of them

we are a full week back to school now, they even have already had their first day off!  im that mom who is sad when summer is winding down, for lots of reasons, but this summer i just didnt want it to end.

i like having them home
i like the later nights outside
i like snuggling in bed with them late at night
i like movie nights
i love not making lunches

but most of all, i love that i have always had one of my kiddos in the car with me going to work each morning.  this summer, that all changed.

now they all get on a bus, the oldest one gets in a CAR, not driven by me!! my youngest little bucket o sunshine is now gone all day in kindergarten. it broke.my.heart.  
                                                              

she oh so confidently got on that bus, not a care or worry.  not a single butterfly in her belly.  it helps we have the best bus driver on the planet.  seriously, miss tracy had a heart attack the week before school started, but still rode the bus the first week so the kids would know she would be there, she couldn’t miss the first day! she truly loves the kids, hugs them each morning and cries the last day of school. 

        

now, i know, i know, she is more than ready, she needed the structure, she wants to learn, she is outgoing, helpful, kind and absolutely ready for kindergarten.

the teachers are amazing, kind and patient.  the staff just awesome.  but it is just something about the fact she is not just a building over, that peace of having her right there near me all day.

i always say, change is hard, i know this!  change is good!  she was ready for the change and has embraced and jumped right in with the change to kindergarten.  away from the comfort of teachers whom have been with her nearly her whole life, who know her quirks and triggers, but i also know her new teachers will do the same and they all have the most exciting times ahead.

i will always miss the days of them being home with me though.

so take good care of my kiddos, of city schools.  keep my kindergartner loving school, carefree and outgoing.  keep my 4th grader sassy, smart and silly, keep my boy engaged and carefree and keep my first born smart, level headed and strong.  you have them for the larger part of their day and i will do my work evenings and weekends.

in less than 180 school days i will be back on break from lunch packing!

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