as with anything it hasn’t been as expected, but as I have learned, it is a journey of day by day.
how is it going?
want a quick win that you can start, now!
like really you have all the tools, you just need you and a good water bottle or cup!
really, it is a small thing that can turn so much around!
why should you should drink more water? i mean besides the fact it is flushing everything out of you and it is great for you, this picture pretty much says it all.
but just in case you need a refresher:
- fill up your water bottles the night before, like multiple water bottles with the amount you need to drink throughout the day or a gallon jug, and just keep filling your water bottle or cup from that jug all day. now you know exactly how much you need to get down the hatch during the day.
- get 16-32ozs down before you even get out of bed. i am a firm believer in this one! take that bottle of water to bed with you, as soon as you get up, chug it! yes, you will have to pee all morning, but it is worth it. you are flushing out all of those toxins that your body is working so hard at night to get rid of, get them gone and you already have a good amount in your system for the day!
- set a timer or calendar invite to remind you to drink your water. you dont want to be stuck at the end of the day having to chug 80ozs, that will make for an uncomfortable, sleepless night. try to consistently drink throughout the day. if you have a fitbit or apple watch, set up a notification just like those annoying ones that remind you to stand up. annoying as it is, i always stand up and walk around. now i will stand up and get more water!
- get fancy! for meals bust out the delicious LaCroix. nothing sounds better than the crack of a can, a can of water! the bubbles trip you up and the fun flavors are great. this is my current fav! what us yours?
there is nothing more annoying to me than when i cannot fall asleep.
i want to sleep
i want to get comfy
i want to be cold to have blankets on me
but i just cannot sleep.
so it is 12:59am, i have been attempting sleep since 10pm. i have watched fixer upper (congrats chip and jo!) i have explained to my children why they cannot sleep but need to, tomorrow is the first day back from winter break. i had registered for a 530am workout, cancelled my registration knowing i will need that extra half hour tomorrow i am missing now. but still, i cannot sleep.
so then i am trying to figure out why. what is not bringing me peace.
i am thinking it is what to do about grace’s volleyball. really, jo/high school volleyball is keeping me up, seriously, no, let that shit go.
again, peace, that is my word, what is not giving me peace right now that i cannot sleep.
i know exactly what it is.
for the past several months i keep debating being done drinking. i talk about it, i think about it, a lot, like a real lot, i listen to podcasts about it, but then things came around. basketball games, post basketball games when i totally need a drink, holidays, parties, new years, girls nights all of the usual where i fall into the drinking bucket.
honestly though, and since i am doing scary things in 2018 to bring me peace and typing this is a huge one, there are so many reasons i do not want to be in that drinking bucket any longer. and if i wasnt here typing about it, good chance no one would even notice if i did stay out of the drinking bucket. really, not drinking is one bucket of my life i would probably have the most support. i have a ton of awesome drinking friends, but i also i have a ginormous handful of amazing non-drinking, supportive, mentors and friends.
what is holding me back? per usual, me. just like i said in my previous posts, i do not do the scary things, i just could float by status quo and everything would be ok.
but i want to do this scary thing. but really is it that scary? it is, because i am making it scary.
instead of just thinking, dude, the day is over and you did not drink today, great job.’ i have to put so much more into it. seriously, the shit that goes through my head amazes me.
i have to put a time constrain on it, i wont drink in january, see how it goes. really? that is just dumb, why do i feel i need to set a time line for every freaking thing.
when i look to the future, i imagine me sitting on the porch enjoying a cocktail. are you freaking kidding me?? at this rate you may never retire, you should be more concerned about that and not what you will be drinking.
we are heading into fundraiser season, how fun will all of those be sober. actually, i should try it because i never even know i have won a prize, i am running around getting drinks and chatting. like that time i won $500, didnt claim it, i was at the bar.
so instead of fretting about what i am going to do on saturday, next week, or for crying out loud in 15 more years, i need to just focus on a day. find that peace in each day and not a time constrain.
maybe i will last a day, maybe a year, maybe the rest of my life but the end goal is to find peace so i will work on that daily.
i guess there is some meaning behind that old saying
one day at a time.
i think i may be able to sleep now, what was keeping me up can now let me sleep in peace, for today that is.
although now all i hear is todd snoring, i promise, that is not bringing me peace or sleep.
again, one day at a time. 🙂
do you love this time of year? i do!
i love the idea of a fresh start, i like monday’s, i like a new month and i love a new year.
this year, this week in between christmas and new years i havent had that huge burst i usually have.
i know what i want to do, i know where i want to go, but i havent sat down and created the clean slate i have in years past. that makes me happy. what? why does that make me happy?
because i have failed in years past. yes, this year i have the same goals i have had the past 3-5 years. yes, they change a little and i have made progress in some aspects, but really, i am generally at the same place i was last year, the year before and the year before that.
i have failed.
the big three that i always want to change are exactly.the.same.
that is frustrating.
what is more frustrating, is i can tell you exactly why.
now i do not know if it is i am afraid of failing, afraid of change or afraid of disappointment, probably a good combination of all three. it is just easier to stay exactly where i am, that is just so stinkin easy.
so while i may be screaming make the change to everyone around me, it is time i take my own advice and do the things that are in me, that will upset others but that i know in my heart will be a huge improvement for me. the things that will get me to my big dream/goal, the things that will bring me that peace i am so looking for.
peace in my heart
peace in my head
peace in my home
peace in how i live my life
you often hear people say rest in peace when dealing with death.
i am ready to live in peace, not just in 2018 but beyond.
living in that peace will lead me to my big goal and i am pumped for what that holds.
lets do this,
are you with me?
i am committed to being open and honest on this journey here. that will keep me accountable as to living my life as i want, in peace.